Unfortunately I am unable to do the next two prompts because
I am not at home and don’t have access to my photos or a dictionary where I can
pick out words randomly. So tonight I
will write something else.
I am only three weeks away from being done with CPE. I can actually see the light at the end of
the tunnel as far as that is concerned.
But I have to admit I don’t feel all that great about how my summer has
gone. Sure, I have been busy with CPE,
and that has been incredibly stressful, but I had high hopes that I would be
able to do something else with my summer other than chaplaincy. I wanted to work on losing some weight for
instance. This is hard enough for me
without all the stress, so I don’t know what I was thinking setting a goal like
that, still, I feel I have let myself down.
Honestly, I am really terrible at meeting goals that I set for myself,
there are certainly things I want to do, but I have spent so much of my life
wandering around inside my own head, I actually find it difficult to do much
without outside pressure.
Anyway, I will keep setting goals for myself and I will keep
looking for ways to make myself turn these goals into habits. I know I am not the only one in the world who
has problems like this, but I often feel that I have it particularly bad, that
I am particularly weak-willed. It shows
a distinct lack of character on my part.
Is it possible to build character without outside assistance? Is there really such a thing as ‘self-help’?
…
I just got interrupted by a very long call. I suppose I can continue to talk about my
self-discipline issues but I no longer care, I guess. Nothing happened in the call to make me less
concerned with myself, I am just really tired now, and writing about myself is
just as draining as talking about myself can be.
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